NOT JUST ANOTHER YEAR-2011

Dear 2011, you were a wonderful and a very remarkable year in my life. You brought everything in my life that I dreamt of in the beginning of this year. As said in my previous New Year blog post, it was supposed to be a very crucial year in my life. And so it was. I had my internship, my CAT exam and placements in this year. And thank to the almighty God that all ended in good. I got a foreign internship in Bangkok, hopefully going to score good in CAT exam and got placed in first phase of placement. Hence all well that ends well.

It was also very remarkable year for many other reasons. India won its 2^nd Cricket World Cup, Sachin scored his 99^th ton (though I was expecting him to complete the century of centuries), Osama Bin Laden got killed, Anna’s campaign against corruption and a lot of other remarkable things. It is a year that I will carry with me for the rest of my life. This whole year I managed to remain single. So no headache of serious commitments. Apparently I also got ditched from my pseudo GF on the very last day of this year, that too on a message which said 
“Sahil Saini…itz d last day f year…n I want to end everything here….tatzz oll I hv to say…I dnt hv ny xplainatns fr dz…so goodbye…m srry cz I hv hurted u bt I cnt b wid u…..oll I want to start a new beginning frm tommrw…hate me or love me… it doesn’t matter…hv a nyc lyf ahead.. gud luck fr d future…take care…”

Anyways I moved on in less than an hour. Not that I wanted to but I had to. Afterall she herself said that she thought me as a fucking matured. Didn’t she?

Anyways 2011 is gone and it’s time to look forward for another even year.  I already had a great start by taking a week off from college and coming home on very first day of this year. So much in mind for this year already. Not much resolutions but gonna read and write a lot. Keep your fingers crossed and hope for the best. Who knows I might come up with a novel this year?

OM EAGLE DOT COM

Believe it or not, but all of us has used Omegle.com at one point of time or other in our online life. For those who hasn't go to this website and try it. You will find many wonderful people here. Who knows you might meet me there? When I was new to this chatting world, a mere teenager that I was, it was how it used to be:

Me: Hii

Stranger: asl?

Me: What asl?

Stranger: Assh*** 

Stranger has left the conversation

 

Me: Hiii

Stranger: asl please?

Me: No, I am not an Assh***?? Are you?

Stranger has left the conversation

 

Me: Hii

Stranger: Hii

Me: asl?

Stranger: 21/F/Delhi and u?

Me: What?

Stranger: My asl.

Me: asl means age sex location?

Stranger: Nope it means I am an assh***

Me: That’s what I thought.

Stranger has left the conversation. 

Stranger: asl?

Me: 18/M/Roorkee and u?

Stranger has left the conversation. 

Stranger: asl?

Me: 19/F/Delhi and u?

Stranger: 19/M/Punjab. So tell me something about yourself. Have you ever been to Punjab miss? 

You have left the discussion 

Me: asl?

Stranger: 20/F/Mumbai and u?

Me: 20/M/Roorkee. Isn’t it a nice coincident that we two are of the same age?

Stranger has left the conversation. 

Stranger: asl?

Me: 18/F/Delhi and u?

Stranger: 18/F/Pune. It’s nice to meet you.

Me: Yeah, it’s nice to meet you too. What do you do?

Stranger: I am in 12^th standard. What about you? You know it’s a relief to meet someone who doesn’t bother about my asl. All they want is to have sex with them online. How lame! Don’t you think so?

Me: I am also in my 12^th standard. Yeah it’s so true. Poor bastards. Don’t they have any life?

Stranger: By the way I am in science stream preparing for IIT JEE. Don’t know what and how to study? Can you be of any help to me?

Me: You know I am also preparing for IIT JEE and I am getting all kind of help from my brother. He is in IIT Roorkee. He is so smart and intelligent that he cracked JEE in his first attempt that too without any coaching. Maybe you should ask him. He is such a good advisor and loves to help his juniors. Should I give you his facebook id? Maybe you want his phone number too. No?

Stranger: Wow. I bet you are proud for having such an intelligent brother. You must be as smart as him. Yeah, give me his facebook id and ask him to add me as soon as possible. You are being so nice to me. Thanks for all this help.

Later that night I logged into my facebook account and found a friend request from some guy. After adding him he messaged me “I am the brother of the girl who talked to your sister on omegle. She must have told you about it. My sister doesn’t have a facebook id so please give her some advice here on this id. By the way my sister asked me to say thanks to your sister for being so nice to her. By the way she was also asking for her phone number in case she needs more help from her. Thank you".

I immediately opened his profile, removed him from my friendlist and blocked him. Permanently!

LIFE @ BANGKOK

Finally I want to write something. Actually I wanted to do so for so long, but I didn’t get any time for it or you can say that I just didn’t want to write because there are so many things to write and actually I couldn’t even begin with all the new experiences because I am afraid that I might end up spoiling the feel. But now I can give you the glimpse of all the many wonderful things and experiences of here. There are so many things to tell. This post just gives the gist of few things of many.
The uniqueness of Bangkok is evident to anyone who has spent even a night in this city. It offers some of the craziest, wild and unforgettable experiences that one can seldom have.  And if you have 2 months instead of few days I bet you will see many other aspects of this city, other than sex and nightlife.

From Delhi to Bangkok
As I entered the Delhi airport, I was like on the top of the world. That was the time I had imagined several times and in several different forms. Ready to go on my first flight ever! A little excited, a lot of ecstasy and not at all scared. For the first time I knew that plane journey can be really boring. The flight was empty and there were not many people. So I got back to one seat behind where this one really cute Bangkok NRI was sitting. I don’t know doing that was odd or not, but the 4 hours journey became fun and the whole time we two were talking. When the plane was about to land, the view of the Bangkok city was really see-worthy. The whole city lit with lights and looked like a jungle of buildings. The landing wasn’t much exiting like take off.
I entered a completely different world as soon as I stepped out of my plane at the Bangkok airport. The airport was very big and it was nice to see completely different people around, mostly white skin, cute and beautiful. The best part was I could see so many uncovered sexy fully waxed white legs right from the thighs to foot. Outside the airport it was humid enough to sweat my whole body. Just outside there was smoking zone where I was standing waiting for taxi and I could feel all the smoke suffocating me. There, I couldn’t even speak to anyone as most of them didn’t know English. So it was a big problem for me there to ask anyone from which exit gate should I leave, where can I get a taxi and more. Even the taxi driver didn’t know English and so I couldn’t even tell him my destination. It was a total chaos. I was in a completely different country, away from my parents, alone, without any phone connection and I had limited cash in my pocket. So I first bought a sim from the airport first and called a Thai friend, who also didn’t know much English but atleast he did help me by talking to the Taxi driver and finally I reached my apartment. The very first night at dinner I got a glimpse of orgasmic meat and fleshy food with every dead animal screaming “Welcome to Bangkok”.

The apartment



My room

 I am living in an apartment which costs me 3000 Bahts per month and it is a spacious apartment with all the facilities like AC, Fridge, Washing Machine, Dining Table, Kitchen, Microwave, Coffee making machine and what not. The whole apartment has wooden floor and it is so clean that we don’t even are supposed to wear slippers inside the apartment. The house is guarded by 6 dogs, sorry 3 dogs and 3 tigers, who roar at me every time I leave or enter the house.

KMUTT University and my lab

First Floor,Library

The university is smaller than IIT, but the buildings are mostly 7-8 floors. The library is really awesome. It has 5 floors, a cafeteria inside, really comfortable couch for studying and sleeping, an entertainment room where you can watch almost any movie by asking them for its DVD, has separate cabins for group studying, or individual studying and what not. Actually I was surprised to see a movie room, a piano and a big chess in the library until I read in someone’s blog that first two floors are entertainment section. In short, the library is supercool and is a good place for hangout and studying both.

My Lab

My lab is like one of the labs of cool guys. Fully Air conditioned with high speed internet connection, and free snacks and coffee anytime. I am not supposed to come lab at any specific time, and so taking its advantage I wake up at 11 or sometimes 12 and reach my lab at around 1-2 after having my lunch to be back by 5-6. Only once my professor comes and sees what I am doing and discuss if he really had anything to.

Thai language
The initial days at the university were one of the memorable moments of my life. We used to hang out with some of the really cool Thai buddies who used to teach us Thai. There I made a bunch of good friends and spent a lot of good moments. Many hangouts, lunches together, bakar sessions, sarcasms, light flirting and the best part was the mixture of people from different countries and we learnt a lot about each other.

Thai Food 

Khaopad gai (Fried rice with chicken)

If you are a vegetarian (like I was before coming here) then I bet you will scream, possibility is that you will even vomit on seeing the food here. Every square inch of the streets and sidewalks is covered by street food chains all offering a variety of meats like pork, chicken, shrimps, fishes, squids, frogs, and others, many kinds of fruits like banana, mango, papaya, different kind of noodles, curries, desserts and many varieties of spicy foods. Khaosan road even offers you some crabs, scorpions, insects, beetles, grasshoppers. And I bet they taste delicious with soya sauce. You can make any food spicy here by adding a little of something in anything. You go anywhere near any food shop your nose will be filled by the aroma of singeing flesh and meat. I generally have every kind of food with meat except pork. The food here may cost you as low as 30 bahts or as more as 400 bahts if you are dining in a big restaurent. Generally my lunch costs me around 40 bahts which includes khaopad kai(fried rice with chicken) with a soft drink or ice tea. Pure vegetarian food is hard to find here. Here they have funny style of drinking anything. They fill a glass with ice, pour water or any soft drink in it and drink it by straw. I have even seen people drinking hot coffee or even beer using a straw.
There are a lot of departmental stores like 7-eleven, Tisco Lotus, etc. there are more than 1000 7-eleven spread throughout the Bangkok where you can buy any general item ranging from your readymade breakfast and milk to alcohol. So you don’t have to walk more than 300 meters from any place.

Transportation
Transportation here is cheap if you don’t consider taxi. Short distance means of transporation are tuk tuks (also known as krapong in thai), motorbikes, vans(mini buses) and buses. You can go anywhere in downtown using the bus and the routes and the bus numbers are clearly mentioned in google maps that too pretty much correct. Most buses are air conditioned but there are also non AC buses but the difference in rate is very small. Some buses have a flat rate of 7 bahts or 12 bahts for going anywhere and some charges on the basis of your destination. The buses have different color like red, green or yellow and actually they have a meaning like which is AC or which charges a flat rate or something. If you want to go within district tuk tuk can take you anywhere for a flat rate of only 5 bahts. Buses, vans and tuk tuks run all the time from 5 am to 11 pm. If you want to travel after 11 pm you have to take a taxi as there is no other alternative. Sky trains is also a good option. It connects major parts of the Bangkok and while travelling in these trains you might get to see a clear view of Bangkok. And from any tall building you can see a panoramic view of the entire Bangkok and it looks like a jungle of buildings.

Thai Culture
Thai people are very peace loving and they have a strong culture, somewhat similar to India. Like they also had similar stories like Ramayana where a demon kidnaps someone’s wife and then he kills him… and blah blah. People here are very nice and kind and far better than Indians(sorry to say that!). They mind their own business and never interfere in other’s life (pretty much opposite then Indians..eh?). People don’t make eye contact with anyone while going on a street or somewhere, especially with the opposite sex, as it is against their culture. Even the college couples never show any physical touch in public like walking hands in hands or kissing. They are very much cultured and sensible. People are really polite and have a habit of saying sorry and thank you every time. Here both men and women work equally hard, you will see more women than men in the shops or any restaurant. Obviously here is no gender bias and women are equally respected. Thailand is also a home for homosexual people and they are treated equally good with no criticism. There are many places in/near Bangkok like Patpong, Pattaya etc where you hear a male voice calling you and you turn up to see a women!

SEMESTER 5 - AN OVERVIEW

On studies

The semester, I finally decided to study. I tried much harder than before but still I don’t understand why I couldn’t score well in my academics and my cgpa is always shy of 7 by few a decimal. Anyways I am keeping my cgpa moaning for the beginning of my next semester.

In this semester I finally felt like I have grown up and left my childhood far behind, only as memoirs. Finally, I became sure about what to do and what not to do related to my career. I joined career launcher for my mba preparations early this semester. I finally got ideas about internships and the companies coming in for placements. Obviously when you are in your 3^rd year of college and you are supersenior you feel a little more grown up and more responsible than your fellow juniors and you have more experience and knowledge about everything starting from your core field to pragmatic skills. We, all civil 3^rd year students were taken to a surveying camp in haridwar where I got the vibes of a real civil engineer. So, overall this semester was very good and hence it should go into my book of life.

On friends

Finally, in this semester I got the friends whom I want to hangout with and who are totally of my type, means who completely matches my taste and can laugh at my jokes. So overall I stayed in a happy friend circle with lot of hangout parties, bakar sessions and chapos! Unfortunately I screwed up with two of my good friends in this semester.

On romance and relationship

Well this was the only semester when I stayed completely single throughout it. I received proposals and I sent proposals. I rejected them and mine was rejected too. Either way, I was staying single. Yeah! And I felt independent, free and happy. I tried to hit on one of my friends. I even had a meltdown for her and have tried everything I could. Unfortunately she wasn’t of that type. Anyways there was a little flirting going on throughout the semester.

On fun and masti

In this semester, I watched a lot of movies. And that means A LOT OF MOVIES. I didn’t find any good season so I missed that. I had a lot of fun in this semester with friends, and even with enemies. I laughed till my stomach bursted and like I have never before. I had enormous hangouts and chapos. I had had drinks in some parties. I had a lot fun at paniit. Everything was so great in this semester. For the first time I lived a semester and so I love this semester.

WHAT IF ??

Have you ever lost yourself? Yes? Ever found yourself then? Does it puts a smile across your face, all that pain... and if you like that saline taste of your own blood read on...even if you don't I know you'll read !

Hi. I am Sahil, presently in Noida attending the PANIIT-2010 conference. And right now I am drinking, 4 pegs of Scotch inside me and 2 more waiting to be gulped by me in next 20 minutes and then I will be floating in the air. I know with each drop of it my life is getting shorter and shorter. Each drop is entering into my blood changing its composition and making it more alcoholic. This blood is being transferred in my whole body and finally to brain. My eyes are closing and I am falling. To me, it seems, the whole world is falling and the whole world seems so miniscule and insignificant to me. The people seem to be revolving all around me. They have familiar faces and yes I know few of them (though the dog nearby seems to be more known to me and yes I can talk to him). They are trying to hold me close and they don’t want me to drink more because they say I can’t control more. There are other people too, who also boasts a lot that they don’t drink, but now are quietly smiling and watching me as If I am the host of some freak show. And there are some voices. Wait! Let me listen …………. (Sorry I can’t hear you anymore, you don’t exist for next 4 hours, so you better be quite). And that’s the point where I started existing and my thought process started.

I keep on drinking it without a hint of guilt as it helps me in dealing with the truth. Truth? Truth, I know it, that I am insignificant to this universe and one day I will be eradicated from this planet and it won’t even make a penny-difference to the universe. I mean I may write good blogs, I may love a girl more than anyone can but so what? Like the dinosaurs and Shakespeare one day I will too be gone. Even the Microsoft windows and Google will be gone too. Then what? Forget about me, even the eradication of this planet won’t make any difference to the universe.

You know I had dreams like all of you. I had always dreamt of ending up at a big goddamn fucking job which would pay me enough for everything and ending up as millionaire. I also had dreamt of marrying a hottie which is obviously too much for me, residing in a big city like New York and hence living happily ever after, which seems like a perfect ending.  But now it fucking pinches me since I have realized that I am decaying and deteriorating each second and knowing that I am no more than a rotten egg.

There was a time when I used to think what is right and what is wrong. But seriously do you think what is right is actually right and what is wrong is actually wrong? I mean seriously…  do you ever think? I mean what is right is actually right and what is wrong is actually wrong? Really?

But what if they are wrong as they were about the earth being flat?

What if they are all fools who entertain themselves everyday?

What if it all started wrong right from the beginning?

What if black is actually better than white?

What if pain is the real happiness and happiness is the real pain?

Is it right to kill people? Is it right to abuse god? Does god really exist? What if it does? And what if it doesn’t?

What if drinking is actually better for your health as the worst thing it can do to you is “just kill” you… I mean… seriously… do you ever think?.... (vomit…vomit)… damn !!!

I like this thing inside me…  yeah ! Anyways who cares?

PS: PANIIT 2010 was fucking awesome, especially the free food and drinks. ;-) Though I do feel guilty for the night. Shollleyyy.

PS: I am not mad. I am just drunk with emotions all the time.

PS: Happy Diwali in advance.

PS: Goodbye.

AM I GETTING OLD?

 

Sahil asks himself: Am I getting old?

This may be weird but I am getting a feeling as If I have grown old. There are several things that make me think so.

• I no longer take interest in chats and long bakkar sessions.
• I no longer shed tears in a romantic movie or while listening to sentimental music.
• I have stopped coming online 24x7. I am not an active member on social networking sites like orkut and facebook.
• I no longer put eye-catching status messages on gtalk.
• I am happy with my old nokia 1600 set and don’t ask for a new phone with QWERTY keypad. I don’t even recharge my phone with a message card and have stopped replying to stupid “hi! watsup” messages.
• My emotions have become more pragmatic and less inclined towards anyone.
• I have become a stoical and nonchalant person who no longer gets hurt by people’s comments.
• I always say to people that “childhood was the best part of my life”. Doesn’t this clearly show that my childhood is over?
• I no longer go to canteen late in the night as I think that canteen food is insipid and aesthetically unfit.
• I can spend 350 bucks for a dominos cheese burst but will bargain even 5 bucks with a rickshaw tender.
• Whenever I see rain I want to go out and dance like a kid but I stop myself because I don’t wanna take the pain of getting wet and drying myself. Maybe I am afraid of water. Plus I think that I am too mature for such kind of nonsense. God! What has happened to me!
• I think that I have seen enough of chicks in my life and now am no longer get attracted or infatuated towards any hot girl. The feeling of falling in love seems to be buried ages ago. I have stopped building castles of love and fantasies in air (typical characteristic of a teenager).
• I no longer shout at or chuckle with my sister. Neither do I fight with my parents to fulfill any of my stupid fantasies.
• I no longer buy/want to buy the things that I always wanted to, the things that satisfied my tastes and passions.
• I start a novel but never reach beyond 50 pages. I don’t even watch a full movie at one stretch.
• I no longer love to play video/computer games and consider those as kids who do.
• I have started taking bath regularly (What the fuck!).
• I know my SWOTs (strength weakness opportunities and threats).
• My hairs have started falling and few have become white.
• The number of cosmetics that I use has fallen from 12 to 1. I have even stopped using facewash and prefer washing my face with soap.
• My stubble grows very fast.
• I have started valuing people in my life.
• I laugh at the things that hurt me once (the best part!).
• My views have become very diplomatic, political and phlegmatic. I am worried and feel very much insecure about my future.
• I have learnt sharp riposte for every touché through experiences.
• I love to advise people like their grandfather guiding them what to do and what not to do. I wish to help people with true heart and nothing fishy in my mind.
• I long for rejuvenation. I desperately do!

They say life begins at 60. But why I am feeling that life should end at 20? I think I urgently need a change in my life.

PS: Finally I have turned 20 which marked the end of my teenage.

PS: Thanks Amik, Garima, Neha, Prachi, Ankit and Samarth for making my birthday special. And yeah the card was so stupefyingly awesome. :)

PS: Today I ride my bicycle after 16 months. It felt very good. I love bicycling.

PS: I have joined CL (Career Launcher) classes for my MBA preparation.

PS: Nowadays life has become very tough, busy, hectic, miserable and pathetic. I have to manage many things simultaneously like MBA preparations, my core studies and reading hellnuma lot of magazines along with improving my GK and gaining knowledge about business world. I wonder how I will manage so many things!

PS: Addicted to Dominos pizza badly!

PS: A long journey ahead. Wish me good luck.

PS: Adios.