Sunday, December 20, 2009
Saturday, December 12, 2009
Friday, December 4, 2009
THE UNSPOKEN CONVERSATION
Me: god, god... i never
believed in you, yet you showed yourself. Tell me why life is so hard
sometimes??
God: ohh.. so you realised it
now... hmmm..!! at some point in their life everyone is going to realise this
dude..life is as it is.. life is not hard, but it is you who make it hard. You
will get used to it and then it will no longer appear hard to u... hey.. what
happened.. why are you so perplexed today. Today i think you had your last exam
of 3rd sem finals. You should be happy... you are now free of your
exams. Now you are supposed to have fun.. so stop blogging and go out. And you
must be happy as you are going home.
Me: yeah..?? I don’t wanna go
anywhere. I just wanted to go to hell and pay for all my sins. My head is too
heavy with burden of all these and thinking about it make me cry. Ahh.. sins??
I don’t even know what i have done wrong. Why i an feeling so guilty and what
for?? Why i am feeling that i am not living, just pretending to live?? Why i
have no reasons to live and no easy way to die so young?? Why i am feeling that
my body and my soul are different things?? I want to live the life of my soul
through this visible part called body. I think i am just a little tired. I
haven’t slept well for a couple of weeks. May be i need sleep. Yeah??
God: Hey...!! why don’t you
directly tell me what’s going in your mind??
Me: i don’t know. There are
millions of contradictory things lirking inside my mind, moving like turbulent
flow of river turning around at every sharp corner. Thinking more about it
makes me 13.6 times more depressed. My faith in you has lost a long time ago
when it has reached a maximum permissible limit. The cracks in my emotions
caused by so many incidents are making my building of love to crumbled under
its own weight. You think that it’s difficult to be god?? Let me tell you that
it is more difficult to live in a crazy fucking world of yours. fuck you. FUCK
you. FUCK YOU.
God: [:O]
Me: i am feeling sleepy now.
I am going. BYE.
God: hey, hey wait. U dere??
.
.
Me: fuck off. You don’t even
exist...... and neither me..!!!
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