U+ME = 1 TREE NOT 2

I'm so in love with u

every lil sec i think of u

and dat every sec,i live several lives

promising all ur fights as mine

You are ma river

you r ma thirst

will always be the best

and neva the worst

In ma dreams i see u

high azure skies i find u

in rains can feel ur touch

with melody of your heart beat must

Am so lost in u

looking into your eyes

into your mind

so deep,so high

You are the beginning 

never the end,and with u baby

I'm amongst the luckiest one's 

with love in their hands

Wanna spend rest of ma life

with u by ma side

can fill ur fantasies

can turn u wild

I don't know there's somthing in your smile

which says,"i'm none without u"

I love u not for what u are,

but for what i'm with u

and dear

I'M NONE WITHOUT U

PS: This poem was written by a girl for me about 18 months back. I just happen to find it in my starred mail box. So I decided to publish it online for the sake of remembering those old good days.

पौने दोसो नकाब है

थोड़ी पी लेता हूँ तो लगता है भेद खुल गए सब इस दुनिया के, सब संगमरमर सा साफ़ है

सोकर उठता हूँ अगली सुबह, चार लोगो से मिलता हूँ, हर एक चेहरे पर पौने दोसो नकाब है

या तो कही गड़बड़ है कुछ हम में, या फिर पूरी कायनात गलत है, पता चलता नहीं माजरा 

बस इतना पता चलता है की असली दोस्त तो है अपने पाच वही, बाकी सबके वायदे बेबुनियाद है

हम तो इस उम्मीद पर टिके थे की वो खुद ही गबन कबूल करेंगे पान खिला कर, गले लगाकर

अब दिल का गुबार निकाले भी तो कैसे, नशे में तो सिर्फ हम है, बाकी अभी भी हाज़िर जवाब है

माना दिल दे कर जुर्म इक हमने भी किया था छोटा सा कभी, पर इतनी सज़ा नहीं बनती थी

ताली भी एक हाथ नहीं बजती, उन्होंने तो हमे ऐसे तड़पाया जैसे उनकी रूह एकदम बेदाग़ है

अभी तक भी तो चल ही रहा था रफ़्तार से सब कुछ, आगे भी चलेगा, मुझे कोई शिकवा नहीं

मैं तो आज भी ना कलम उठाता, मेरी क्या गलती, कुछ दर्द का नशा है बाकी हलकी शराब है

 PS: This poem has been taken from someone's blog as I find it interesting

IT'S KILLING ME FROM INSIDE

Finally I agree with you that I have stop writing lately. And it was for the first time that I gave myself a break in blogging, intentionally. There was a purpose behind it.

First, I wanted to know whether I could live without writing or not. Answer is obviously NO which is the only reason why I have started it again, hopefully.

Second, I didn’t want to start writing again, I mean at this point of time when I am only 5 days away from my end sem examinations. I mean I had thought that I would start writing again from mid May when I would be interning somewhere. Obviously then I would have lot of spare time to kill. But today I couldn’t resist more. I mean lot of things can happen in few days and it did. There are so many things which I wanna fill your heads with right now. If I would start speaking god knows when I would stop. A lot of good as well as bad things happen with me in the beginning of this year and my mind still have those memories afresh. I so wanted to tell you all. Plus I also wrote many offline blogs, things which I write unofficially and never publish out of pride, shame or whatever. I so wanted to publish all those or atleast show them to my very close friends. I hope you could even see the frustration in this very post. I have written so many things on so many topics but I didn’t publish for a purpose.

There are so many persons to whom I wanna say sorry, so many persons to whom I wanna say thanks and so many for vengeance. In this time I have realized who my true friends are, whom should I rely upon in what situation and with whom and when can I share my things that are hard to digest by my little belly. Furthermore I regret for trusting few people more than they could be and I obviously got hurt. I also fell in love and this time I swear it is true (what are you looking at? Don’t give me how-could-you look. It’s only you dumbo. You will never know it and I will never say it and the worst part is that you could never possibly imagine it!). I almost broke down 10 times for different people and for different reasons. I also met few special persons in my life. I did some good things in good company and also some bad things in bad company of good people. I did bad things, I regretted it and did it again.




To sum up this time was vey awesome and prudent for me. I learnt so many things and I have become more mature but emotionally weak in this period. I have absorbed more things than I ever had since my childhood in my heart and I am still absorbing it. Things which are all lying there infront of you to see but never enough to gather that attention of yours. Things which you will only understand when I write. Or may not even then? Things which come from my stomach to my mouth but never come out from my mouth. Things which I want you to understand before I tell you myself. Things which I will never say and you will never bother to ask!

PS: I am writing this with respect to few initial reactions of the readers of this post. Please don't think this post as a love one. This post is not revolving around love or other crap. This is revolving around much bigger and important  concerns in my life. And please !! I am not commited at all. Can't anyone be in love without staying out from commitment. Furthermore love isn't always what you think. It can have different dimensions. Isn't?


PS: This post is not written for a single person or aimed to hit that someone special in my life. This post is written for all and aims equally at all those people who know me. I hope you would put yourself in that shoe for a moment and feel my words.

SAHIL'S DATING FORMULA

Should I seriously go to meet this girl? But the place is too far. I don’t wanna travel so much. But what if she felt bad about it? What if she broke up with me if I don’t go? If these are the types of questions which come to your mind often while you got a date with a girl in long distance relationship, then follow this dating formula to decide whether you should go or not.


If the time wasted in going to some place to meet her plus the time taken to come back from it is less than or equal to the time spent with her, then and only then it is wise(advisable) to go meet the girl. But if during the travelling (going and coming) time she is with you, then that time shifts to the other side and the inequality still holds good.

If you are staying at some place and spending the night together, the time spend while you both are asleep (chances are rare though [;-)]), that time doesn’t counts. If only one is asleep then only half of that much time counts.

So if time for travelling is X.

Time spent with her is Y.

Hence, by formula, go only if

X<=Y *



* only applicable when you have sufficient money with you to spend on the date.

A SWEET CONVERSATION

He: Hey! What’s up?

She: Nothing. You tell. What you doing?

He: ………..

She: You seem upset today. What happened?

He: Nothing.  You know I love a girl very much. But she doesn’t talk to me much.

She: What? Why don’t you call her up? May be she will.

He: Well I am not quite sure she likes talking to me. Else she would have called me.

She: No. Girls are very shy in these matters. You have to take the first step. May be she waits for your call. You know I too love a boy but he never calls me. I wait for his call for hours.

He: What? You love a boy? Who? You never told me.

She: Yeah. I love him very much. But he is an idiot. He, like you, also thinks that I should be the one calling him. Dumbo!

He: So he never called you up? Ever?

She: Only once or twice.

He: May be you should call her. It’s better than waiting for his calls for hours.

She: Hmm. Maybe I will. But what about you? Why don’t you call your girl?

He: I just did.

She: Hmm. You know my guy isn’t that stupid. He does call me sometimes.